Today Is Today

Yesterday was a really stressful day, both at work and at home, and I lost it by the end of the night. On top of that, I decided yesterday to eat three meals and a snack. I tried to sit with the discomfort, but as soon as I had finished my snack in the evening, the discomfort was overwhelming, and I couldn't help but cry. I really don't know if I can do it again today. I want to cry all over again just thinking about it. I know that I need to feel the feelings, and it is the only way I'm going to fully recover. I don't often feel anger, or at least I don't acknowledge it, but I felt especially angry at my treatment team. I know it is not their fault that I am in pain, I'm just not always rational in my thinking! I have therapy today, and maybe talking through what is going on will help. Home is difficult right now. Two of my sons are being typical teenagers, and I know that I experimented at their age, but I'm so worried for them right now. Yesterday was a bad day at work. The kids sense the end of the school year, so there behaviors are escalating, and the classrooms I am in feel chaotic. I'm more than ready for the end of the year. Anyway that was yesterday, and today is today.