I'm up early after a night of tossing and turning, my mind spinning around like a top. Work has been good, but I have new kids, and trying to figure them out keeps my head busy. It is difficult those first few weeks, as you get to know the child. Yesterday I felt like I absolutely did not know what I was doing, just flying by the seat of my pants and trying to anticipate what would come next. Exhilarating and exhausting at the same time. I am feeling more like myself this week, and I'm sure that settling back into a routine helps. Work does tend to throw my meals off, and I know I've skipped too many lately. I should pack a lunch, but for some reason making myself do it has been a problem. When I get in a pattern of not eating, the fear of eating gets stronger, and I tell myself that I don't really need a lunch. What I've been doing during my lunch break is checking my e-mail and wasting time on the computer for half an hour, and then jumping in my car and heading to my second school, grabbing a diet coke on the way out. I haven't even been hungry when I get home from work, and when I don't feel the hunger it is difficult to force myself to eat. Last year I bought a cute little lunch bag which I have yet to use. Today I'm going to throw a yogurt and protein bar into it and call it good. Just like everything else, I need to create a new eating routine before everything goes to hell in a handbasket! That is all for now. Wishing everyone a wonderful week!