A Self Defense Course?

Self defense Class
I didn't want to go to therapy or see my nutritionist on Wednesday, but I forced myself to go, and I'm glad that I did. My therapist reminded me that this is my therapy, and that we can go at whatever pace feels comfortable to me. That made me feel better about wanting to slow down our trauma work for awhile. The issue that I'm having right now is safety, or rather, my perception of what makes me feel safe. I'm not feeling safe in my body because of recent comments that have been made, and that is very frightening to me. It has definitely fueled the eating disorder, and I know that I need to challenge these misperceptions. The truth is that at a low body weight, I am less able to protect myself. Starvation leads to less awareness of everything, including my surroundings, giving me a false sense of security. I am just now realizing that I have used starvation as a way to feel powerful and in control of my safety. My nutritionist has suggested that I take a women's self defense course, and my husband also thinks that it would be a really good idea, so I'm going to start looking into it. The idea of taking a class like this actually scares me, but maybe I need something more active and concrete to give me a sense of empowerment? If you have thoughts on this subject, I would love to hear them!

Comments

Anonymous said…
It doesn't hurt to try it..if it works great if not then at least you had the experience..:)
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Anonymous said…
Angel, I think its a good idea to try a self-defence course! For one thing, its exercise, which is always good, right? Secondly, it will help change your perception of yourself, the way you move and how you relate to others.
I started doing Muay Thai kickboxing in 2000. At first I was quite confronted by somone sending their fist towards my face. But that is mostly because I wasn't used to it. Once it became a more regular thing, and I knew what to do in that situation, it really helped me to overcome a lot of my inner anger.
Give it a go - I'm sure it has to be helpful for you!
:)
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Anonymous said…
Thought of the Day:

"It is our attitude at the beginning of a difficult task which more than anything else will affect its successful outcome." - William James

Have a good day!!

Love
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Goddess said…
I think it's a brilliant idea! Beyond the physical training, a women's self-defense course teaches a psychological empowerment and supports your inner strength. It also helps you to feel more comfortable and strong within your own body, and helps you deal with past victimization. It really would be just the thing for you.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
VickyAnn said…
Self defense classes can be fun, I've only been to one because of time clashes with work and classes but I laughed a lot and left feeling powerful.

They're worth a try.

Vicky XXX
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Waterrose said…
No matter the circumstance I think, as women, we all need to know how to defend ourselves. Not only to build our confidence, but to know that we stand a chance, if only by surprise. I also think that survival courses help with confidence. I grew up in a place completely different than where I live today. My husband insisted that we all, including our children, learn how to survive in the desert. It helps me feel safer overall. hugs to you.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Cammy said…
I took a RAD self-defense course in high school, and it was a great experience! It really made me appreciate my body more, what it can DO over what it looks like, and I learned a lot of useful things. I say go for it!
Take care of yourself,
Cammy
Sunday, June 22, 2008
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