Tuesday, January 6, 2009

The Search For Inner Peace


This is the last day of my winter break, and I'm sad about it. I really enjoyed staying home and hanging out with Dave and the boys. I could definitely get used to it, but oh well...back to reality! I think the boys are ready to get back to school, although Roman has been moping around the house all day. We all need to get back to the normal routine.

I didn't have any therapy or sessions with my nutritionist for the entire break, and I think that all in all, I did okay. I'm starting to open up more and more with Dave when I'm struggling, so that has helped. I even did well with food over the holidays, with very little restricting. I'm not happy with where my weight is, but then again, when am I ever satisfied with that? I'm doing what I need to do to be healthy, and all that I can do is take it one meal at a time and one day at a time. I'm not sure what to do about the body image issue. I would like it to be better, but I'm not sure what I need to do to make that happen, and maybe it never does. Maybe it is more about acceptance, and I just need more time to get there. I want it so much. I long for inner peace and self acceptance, and hopefully, eventually, I will find it.


MrsMenopausal said...

We really enjoyed the holiday break at our house, too. My daughter was moaning for three days before having to go back this past Monday. :) It's always a little sad to see it come to an end.

Body image is such a common issue for so many women and of all different shapes, sizes and ages.

I love that you used the word acceptance. ITA!

Beth Fehlbaum, Author said...

Boy, do I know how it is to struggle with the ED over the holidays. I think I did pretty well but it was, as always, a challenge.
Beth Fehlbaum, author
Courage in Patience, a story of hope for those who have endured abuse
Ch. 1 is online!

Melinda said...

It's always hard to get back to work (or school) after a break--but we would not enjoy the breaks in nearly the same way if they occurred all the time.

Peace and light,


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Marlene said...

I enjoy following your blog and the thought provoking posts. It is hard to go back to work after a holiday. However, here in the NW United States snow covers everything, we are under emergency conditions and unable to get out safely on the roads and sidewalks - too much dangerous ice.

I have a severe case of "cabin fever" and ready to return to the office.

Plese visit at:

The best to you and yours in the New Year.

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