A Change In Eating


This is my first day of eating small snacks throughout the day, and it went well. I also ate breakfast, which almost never happens. I'm eating everything in the car, but that is okay, since I don't like eating in front of people. That is a hurdle I will jump at another time. I feel really good, and surprisingly, not at all guilty. They were small snacks, but I didn't get the ravenous feeling like I did all of last week, and I had tons more energy. It's a no brainer for most people, but so difficult for someone who has definite rules about how many times they can eat during the day, which in my case was once. I have a busy evening, and feel like I have energy instead of feeling exhausted when I get home. I have errands to do, a kid to drive around, and then I'm off to yoga. I just wanted to share my news:)

Comments

Eve said…
I am so very happy to read this post! you are doing wonderful things for your body and your family! I know what you mean about eating in front of people. I struggle with this greatly. I am very proud of you Angela! YES! To taking back everything!
Monday, August 22, 2011
Anonymous said…
Yay! I am so happy for you. It is good that you are eating.

I love you.

Jenny
Monday, August 22, 2011
Ann said…
congratulations on a great accomplishment. I eat in my car too but only because it's more comfortable to sit there than it is in our break room
Monday, August 22, 2011
Wanda's Wings said…
Sounds like you are really doing a great job. I also hate to eat in front of people. Take care, Wanda
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Sia Jane said…
Honey, I have been totally out of the loop with no internet, and what a pleasure to click on your blog and read this :)
Amazing {{{hugs}}}
Thursday, August 25, 2011
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