Friday, December 21, 2007

I'm Free!

I was discharged from Renfrew this morning. Sweet freedom! 30 days without diet coke. Such torture. I'm so glad that I went though. I'm feeling much more positive and confident in my recovery. Treatment was very intense. The first week was the hardest. I had a few problems adjusting, and was so depressed when I arrived. I didn't even realize how much I hated myself. The second day there I had a big problem with self injurious behaviors, and really bruised and scratched up my arms. Once I settled in, and had my meds adjusted, my outlook began to look brighter and brighter. I met so many wonderful women while I was there. We all became quite close to one another, and it was actually very hard to say goodbye this morning. I would definitely recommend Renfrew to anyone with any type of eating disorder.

My step-dad picked me up this morning, and I'm staying with them until Sunday when I fly back home. Everyone has been so supportive. I am so lucky to have been blessed with amazing friends and family. It will be nice to spend some time with my parents and my brother before I go home. I miss Dave and the boys so much that it hurts. I can't wait to see them. I have definitely missed my friends here! No computer, cell phone, newspaper, and no time in the day to really even watch the news on t.v. I felt so cut off from the world. I was definitely ready to get out. I feel like I'm on my way toward recovery, but I know that there will be bumps along the way. I learned some great coping skills though, and feel like I will be able to put those to use when I need to.

I have so many blogs to catch up on, so I had better get busy! Thank you all for all of your kind comments, and the wonderful cards that you all sent me. Getting mail was one of the highlights of my day!

Much love,