Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Help Along The Way

Ugh! I'm really struggling through my meals. It is so frustrating, but I'm doing as much as I can. I'm just feeling so anxious after I eat. I see my therapist and nutritionist tomorrow, so hopefully between all of us, we can figure out why. I feel like I am trying to deal with my emotions, but maybe this is my way of trying to avoid them and I don't realize it because it is so familiar. I don't know if that even makes sense, but anyway...I can't sleep, so here I am. I know that I will be able to work through it, and I'm trying to remember that I have come a long way. I have had these eating disordered thoughts for half of my life, so I realize that it is going to take time. I was able to talk to Dave tonight at dinner. He could see that I was having a difficult time, and helped talk me through it. Not that long ago it would have been too hard for me to accept the help, but now, I am just grateful for his patience and support. I will take all of the help that I can get, and that is just one more step in the right direction.

There! That was a little pep talk to myself:)
Now I must try to get some sleep.