Yesterday was my appointment with my nutritionist, and it went well. I was nervous because I knew that I was going to be weighed. I'm doing blind weights, so I don't know what my actual weight is, although I still guess at it! I hadn't been weighed in a few weeks, and although I haven't gained any weight in a year, I'm still always anxious about it. My weight has been stable, but this week I had actually lost 3 1/2 lbs. I was really excited about it, and yes, probably too excited. I was so worried that increasing my food intake would make me gain, but this proves to me that's not the case, and I'm so relieved. Now I feel more comfortable with my meal plan, and I think the exercise is helping to boost my metabolism, which has been sluggish due to the restricting. I know that it's not about losing weight, but being healthy, or at least I hope that if I keep on telling myself that, I will believe it. Losing weight is so seductive, and for me, all it leads to is wanting to lose more. I do think that I'm past the stage of never believing that I'm thin enough. I no longer want to disappear. My nutritionist says that if I follow the plan, my body will fall into a natural and healthy weight, and I'm going to trust and believe that will happen. I'm going to continue with what I've been doing, and let the rest go.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Weighing In
Yesterday was my appointment with my nutritionist, and it went well. I was nervous because I knew that I was going to be weighed. I'm doing blind weights, so I don't know what my actual weight is, although I still guess at it! I hadn't been weighed in a few weeks, and although I haven't gained any weight in a year, I'm still always anxious about it. My weight has been stable, but this week I had actually lost 3 1/2 lbs. I was really excited about it, and yes, probably too excited. I was so worried that increasing my food intake would make me gain, but this proves to me that's not the case, and I'm so relieved. Now I feel more comfortable with my meal plan, and I think the exercise is helping to boost my metabolism, which has been sluggish due to the restricting. I know that it's not about losing weight, but being healthy, or at least I hope that if I keep on telling myself that, I will believe it. Losing weight is so seductive, and for me, all it leads to is wanting to lose more. I do think that I'm past the stage of never believing that I'm thin enough. I no longer want to disappear. My nutritionist says that if I follow the plan, my body will fall into a natural and healthy weight, and I'm going to trust and believe that will happen. I'm going to continue with what I've been doing, and let the rest go.
Posted by Angela at 10:20 AM
Labels: eating disorder recovery, exercise, meal plan, nutritionist, weight
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Angela,
Congratulations on following your meal plan. Since I just started with a nutritionist, I'm still skeptical about losing weight by eating more. However, I actually know it is true as this is what I used to tell my clients, but I don't think that I really believe it for me. I meet with mine tomorrow. This post gives me hope.
take care,
CC
Losing the weight was a good thing because it gave you more confidence about eating. I don't think the number is really all that important as long as you feel good about yourself and you're healthy. Keep it up Angela.
There might be a small up and down anyway as we are humans and are in the physical flow... I am so PROUD of you. And as you have more energy - well, that is where the calories goes... So happy. Have a wonderful weekend
Very, very proud of you. Your attitude seems great toward your food plan.
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Congratulations!
i am happy to know that you are having a meal plan. i want to lose weight too, but i cant. i adore u so much!^V^
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