Magical Rainbows

I have a star prism that hangs from the rearview mirror of my car that my mom gave me when I was in Florida. I love the way when the sun is shining, tiny rainbows dance around my car. It is magical, and the small kaleidoscopes of color make me smile. It really is the little things in life that create happiness.

Today is better than the sadness I was feeling earlier in the week. Sometimes I don't think that I'm strong enough to deal with painful feelings, but then when I've made it through, I realize that I do have the strength inside of me. I worked through some of those feelings last night during my therapy session. I had a very disturbing dream the other night, and I cannot even make myself explain what it was about. It was too ugly to put into words. I told my therapist what it was about, but I couldn't go into details without crying. She helped me to make sense of it though, and her insight was very helpful. I just wish that I didn't dream such horrible things so often. Food has also been better today. I even had a chicken snack wrap from McDonald's. Fast food generally scares me, but I felt like it was the safest thing on the menu. Today I see my nutritionist, who I haven't seen in a month. I have a lot to tell her. I think she will be pleased with how I've been doing for the most part. I made it through Thanksgiving, challenged myself with some new foods, and although I skip meals here and there, I think that I've done fairly well. Now if I could only keep the sun shining, so I could always see the rainbow:)