I was searching for some old pictures of the boys to post on facebook for "Throwback Thursday." and stumbled across an old picture of myself wearing a bikini. It is ironic since I am planning on a trip to the pool with a friend today. I inhaled sharply, and quickly shuffled past it, but it wasn't fast enough to avoid the blank look on my face, the sharp collar bones, and outline of my ribcage. A friend had taken my picture at the public pool where I spent the summer with the boys. I had already given birth to all of them, and I was wasting away. I would go for days living on apple slices, and taking dozens of laxatives to get rid of everything. I wanted to be clean...empty...
Today, I will put on my swim suit. It is not a bikini, although I could wear one if I wanted. My shoulders are strong; no longer sharp and bony. I have curves and more than enough flesh to cover my ribs. There is a light in my eyes, and more importantly, I am alive. I am alive...
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Fantastic! Fantastic!
Funny...After my "I don't have 'I hate my body' moments" comment yesterday, my super cute high waist polka dot bottom came in the mail. It made me feel like I looked like I have love handles (my husband's facial expression to that statement was hilarious. Anyway, I almost immediately sent it back, but decided to wait. Tried it on again today and I came to a similar realization as you did her and darn it, I'm sporting that baby this summer and going to love every retro - inspired moment!
Love you!
Theresa
Good for you T!!! I've seen recent photos, so I can understand your husbands look of dismay! It sounds adorable, and I'm sure you look fabulous. I'm glad you decided to give the bottoms another try.
Love you too!!!
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