I'm such a hypocrite! I just finished
telling someone that I care about
that they shouldn't restrict, when it is
exactly what I have been doing! I'm starting
to lose the weight that I had gained back,
and all that my mind says is more, more, more!
This eating disorder rules my life. It is what
takes up most of the thoughts in my head,
and that is sad and ridiculous. And, I can't
seem to stop it. To be honest, most of me does
not truly want to recover. I just want everyone to
think that I'm recovered while I make elaborate
plans on how to starve myself without anyone
noticing. Such bullshit.
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