I'm consumed by thoughts
of what I'm eating,
or not eating.
Is this smaller?...
Is that bigger?...
Looser...Tighter...
I suppose that is the nature of the disorder.
I use it to distract my mind from more painful
thoughts. It makes me numb and oblivious
to all other feelings. Unfortunately, it also
numbs the good feelings. I just feel dead inside.
I have a husband who is in love with me, and four sons
that I adore. I'm blessed with a beautiful family, and yet
I push everything away to let the sickness take over.
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