Tuesday, August 25, 2009



I should be in bed sleeping right now. My body is tired, but my mind is unable to rest. It was a rough afternoon at work with students. I keep replaying the days events in my mind, and wondering in what ways we can make it better. The staff in our classroom is so wonderful and caring, but we are all still getting to know the kids, and there are definitely some challenging behaviors that we are having to deal with. Everyone has their own opinions and ideas, and unfortunately we don't have the time to discuss these in the middle of a child's meltdown. Last week seems to have been the honeymoon period in our classroom, and now all hell is breaking loose;-) I'm glad that I was able to get so much rest this weekend. It is looking like I will need it this week. By the way, I love my job and I'm lucky to have a job, so I'm not complaining at all. I only worry when it feels like we are failing to recognize a child's needs. We just have to learn what those needs are, and I guess I'm not very patient! Here's to the hope that we will learn more tomorrow.


Jane Doe said...

I hope that you are able to get some rest soon. It's so hard to fall asleep when your mind is racing. I also hope things improve at work. It sounds very stressful right now.

Have a delightful day,


PJ said...

you figured that there was going to be a honeymoon period, didn't you. as the students get to be more comfortable with all of you they will start showing their true selves. maybe you guys need to have a little meeting where you can all discuss your ideas with each other. it's still early in the year, i'm sure everything is going to be all right. after all, they have you for a teacher ;)

much love to you angela!

Angel said...

Thank you Jane, and PJ, you are a sweetheart! You are both so supportive. I appreciate it:)

Sandi said...

I can imagine how stressful it must be. Good luck with everything.

Ann said...

I can't imagine doing a job like yours. You say you are not very patient but you must have more than you think to be able to do this kind of work. I for one would never be able to handle it. Hope you get the rest you need, I know how hard it is when you're dead tired but your mind is whirling and wide awake.

Unknownwriter and Almost Lover said...

I know the restless nights..hopefully things will settle a little as time passes

Shinade aka Jackie said...

oh dear Angel i feel so bad this time because I too am feeling really down and out.

I think I am trying to come down with a cold.

But, I do think eventually things will settle. last week they were on their best behavior.

Now they are feeling more comfortable and testing those boundaries.

Just hang tough with them and they will eventually figure out at least where you are concerned what is expected of them.

I do hope you get some rest. I always hated this statement from my hubby for years about worrying.

He is not a worrier at all and I like you have a tendency to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders all the time.

Finally after years of hearing him tell me that worrying wasn't going to change anything, all of a sudden one day, I listened to him.

Yes I do still worry quite a bit. But, when things are really out of my control at the specific moment I have learned how to release.

For instance, I am getting sick and don;t feel good at all. I have only visited a very few people today and I doubt if I have 50 drops.

But, the fact is I don't feel good, I can't change that right now, so,I am only visiting a few special people and then going to lay down.

I am not going to lie there worrying about my drops or my blog either.

I am going to watch some movies, zone out and get some rest. I hope you are able to do the same thing.

Just zone out with a book or old movies on the tube or something. Anything to help relieve the racing thoughts.

I know I am rambling...I apologize for that!!

Know that I love you and i will be thinking about you!! Not worrying about you but thinking!!

Big big hugs,

Miss Sara said...

I, too, have many nights of the same... *sigh*

However, on another note, I want to ask you: Do you realize how strong you are? You struggle daily w/ your own "issues" and yet, you are able to step out & DO and work in a field where you are helping others.

My dream is to work with troubled adolescent youth in the correctional system (as I once was), but I am always afraid that if I get there, even to an interview: I will break down.

I applaud you.

Angel said...

Thank you for saying that Sara. My job is so important to me. It really helps me to step outside of myself and put the focus on others for awhile. I think you should go for your dream. You just may surprise yourself!

On another note, I wanted to wish you a happy birthday!
Sending much love:)