Look To The Sky

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Look To The Sky

Impenetrable
A solid shiny steel cage
enclosed within
Vast and high
I raise my eyes
and feel so small
There are no foot holds
on which to climb
Trapped inside
I slip and slide
now too tired to try
My voice is lost
bouncing against the cold metal walls
an echo in the darkness
My frozen breath hangs in the stillness
of this doorless cave
which has swallowed me whole

Angela Minard 2010©







Comments

battleinmind said…
Wow. Well you pretty much described how I feel. Thanks so much for sharing this :)

xxx
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Paula said…
I am sorry for you struggling so hard right now. Love from my heart to yours.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Angela said…
My therapist asked me to write a poem about the wall that I had built around myself, and this is what came out.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Wanda's Wings said…
I can so relate to what you have written. You truly have a talent for writing. Keep it up. Get your story out.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
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