On My Way

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This is just a quick post, but I wanted to thank everyone for their support and suggestions. I feel like I've been doing better since last week. I've increased my food intake some, and even ate chili at a friends house over the weekend. It was uncomfortable, but I did it anyway. I can't believe how loud the eating disorder is, and how quickly it seemed to sneak up on me. Right here in this moment, I feel determined to beat this, and more positive than I have been in a while.

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Grampy said…
Good Job. That is what you need. Keep the positive thinking.Don't dwell on not eating. Just eat.Keep some small snacking food around. While on your computer chewing on celery or carrot sticks can be a good thing.Don't be afraid of your food.
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Anonymous said…
*thumbs up* keep it up!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Unknown said…
dropping in with big cyber hugz for you my friend. day by day, moment by moment, that's what you do. have a great day, much love to you!
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Ann said…
Good job Angela, keep it going. You're doing great.
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Wanda's Wings said…
Great job. Thinking of you.
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
clean and crazy said…
you totally rock!! it is good to hear you feeling better, funny how food can help huh.
take care of you.
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Joanne Olivieri said…
fantastic!!! I am so glad you are feeling determined. You are strong and your willpower can get you through any hurdles. The photo is a perfect testament to your freedom.
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Beautifuldreamer said…
Please visit my blog and pick up the award that's waiting for you!
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Raven said…
Good for you. I'm so glad you are doing better! Keep it up.

Hugs,

Raven
Friday, October 09, 2009
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