Sad Or Something

I'm sad, or something...
confounded feelings! 

I need a map to find my way through it all, 

and I would like it all to be explained in precise detail, 

and of course I can't allow myself to be...

I must pick it all apart, 

criticizing myself every step of the way. 

Along with whatever feelings I'm having also comes fear, 

as in, 

"What does this mean?" 

"Am I going to sink into yet another debilitating depression?" 

"How long is this feeling going to last?"

 I want answers, 

and I want them now! 

I'm the only one who has them, 

so I realize I'm not being patient with myself. 

I'm going to search for someone to hug, 

eat some dinner, 

which I've been avoiding, 

and not give into destructive behaviors.