Thursday, October 9, 2014
I'm sad, or something...
I need a map to find my way through it all,
and I would like it all to be explained in precise detail,
and of course I can't allow myself to be...
I must pick it all apart,
criticizing myself every step of the way.
Along with whatever feelings I'm having also comes fear,
"What does this mean?"
"Am I going to sink into yet another debilitating depression?"
"How long is this feeling going to last?"
I want answers,
and I want them now!
I'm the only one who has them,
so I realize I'm not being patient with myself.
I'm going to search for someone to hug,
eat some dinner,
which I've been avoiding,
and not give into destructive behaviors.