Building The Ark Is On Hold For Now

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Ahhhh... Sweet sunshine! I feel excitement about this day for no particular reason whatsoever, and that in itself, makes me smile. It doesn’t really take much to make me happy. Just a little sunshine. I accomplished quite a bit around the house during the days of rain, so today I feel free to do whatever I damn well please! I’m not sure what that will be at the moment, but at least I know that I won’t have to get started on building that ark like I thought that I would. I will just see where this day takes me. I see my therapist and my nutritionist later this afternoon. I have been following my meal plan, and have even been able to incorporate some "fun foods" into my week, like candy at the movies, and jalapeno poppers, which I really love!

Did I hear somebody ask what I have been knitting lately? Well, I just finished a light and airy white scarf for spring, and yesterday I started working on a purple chenille throw for the living room. Thanks for asking!

Well, I’m off to start my day and cause some trouble here and there.

Let’s all make it fabulous! sunshine

Comments

Anonymous said…
Thought of the Day:

"... the great thing to learn about life is, first, not to do what you don't want to do, and, second, to do what you do want to do." - Margaret Anderson

Love Donn
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Anonymous said…
Oh, you knit too?!

(Sorry for being a pest with these comments--I'm browsing your site and having a grand old time.)
Saturday, March 29, 2008
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